Up to now I have been walking hand in hand with a recovered sponsor on a path to freedom. I have likely developed a close bond with another man or woman in the program and have hope that this program will work for me too. I have begun to have spiritual experiences, but the time has come for me to take actions which will propel me into the world of the Spirit.
I’ve admitted powerlessness and conceded that God is everything. I have turned my will over and made an honest inventory of my life. I’ve shared those often painful details with another person. I have made a list of my defects and asked God to remove them. I now have a list of those whom I have harmed and am now willing to face each and every one of them to make right my wrongs. I cannot do this on my own power. I have to have God’s help.
This is the step where I begin to walk hand in hand with my Higher Power. It has been my experience that the amends which required the most humility are the ones that have brought about the most freedom. We have been delusional most of our lives. The steps shed light on that delusion, and the 9th step has freed me from so much of it.
As I continue to seek God on this path to freedom and truth, I pray that more freedom from delusion will come. This may require more discomfort and increased humility as my spirit continues to awaken; but I thank God for that gift. The humbler and more willing I am to face my fellows and right my wrongs, the more freedom I live in and the closer to my Creator I get to be.
– Anonymous